My take on this: it’s just something that is not meant to be gotten used to.
it’s like skydiving in a way..that it just will always feel like the first time. Same insane cells firing at intense rates, same flashbacks of your life, and same thoughts about where you’re gonna end up if you die.
But all I’m asking is that it doesn’t occur so freaking frequently, but I guess it’s all about appreciating it.. which obviously I’ve yet to fully comprehend.
So this is how you learn.